Some Monday Motivation

You are not meant to bear that which you find unpleasant, Michele, you are meant to change it. That's why you feel it. Your every twitch of pain and malaise invites you to wake up, pushing you to seek grander truths that will reveal a bigger reality and a more magnificent you, ever closer to an awareness of your true place within reality creation - as a Creator. 

Wake up, Michele, wake up!! There are great things to do, people to meet, and continents to cross in mind and matter. 

What The Hood is Servin' Up

Trying not to be upset that Peacefood Cafe is #4 

and that Cotta is not even on the board.

Looking Out From Thirty Three

I want a life that sizzles and sparkles and makes me laugh out loud. I don't want to get to the end, or to tomorrow, even, and realize that my life is a collection of meetings, errands, receipts, packed subway cars, lunches at my desk, and dirty dishes. I want to eat cold watermelon in the hot summer sun, and warm comforting soups and some crisp crunchy apples in the Fall. I want to sing out loud, have dance parties, stand on my hands, wear bright lipstick, eat croissants, and marvel at a sky full of stars... I want to cozy up in bed with gazing stares, lay in the sun, and enjoy my family. I want a partner that looks at me like we are in on an inside joke, and a house that welcomes me home with comfy blankets, crisp white sheets, and memories that hug me with warmth. I want to throw parties in a backyard with candles and strings of lights. I want family traditions that involve cabins, lakes and roasted marshmellows. I want to dance in a fancy kitchen, and soak in a big white tub. I want to read books that are so good they make me want to force everyone I know to read them as well. I want to sit with people and hear their stories, share their experiences, and let them know they matter. I want the people around me to know that I love them and I'm grateful because none of the above would matter without them. I want my children to look at the world with joy and realize it is blessing just to be alive. I want to make the Universe smile and be glad that this life was given to someone who loves the gift.

Some Monday Motivation

Just a Main Division in The Story

My, my, my it is has been some time since I actually wrote on the ole blog!!! I come back now a slightly changed (hopefully for the better) person. I have completed ALL of my prerequisite classes and in about a week I will travel to San Francisco to see if it is an real option for living out this new chapter.

Its interesting that we use that term "chapter", which literally means "main division". For the past few weeks (well, a whole lot longer than that), I have been breaking down the story of me. Michele as a child. Michele as an young adult. And now who I am today. There was a moment this weekend as I was reflecting on the different "chapters" of my life, I realized something was propelling me into each unknown... The feeling of always wanting more. Yet, it is a feeling I've ALWAYS been uncomfortable possessing. I thought it was wrong. "Appreciate what you have!", "Be thankful that don't have less!", "Don't be spoiled!" These well-intended voices prohibited my innate desire. Truthfully, what I feel like is a basic human desire... to want more. Not in a bad way, where what you have isn't enough, but in the way that a mother desires more for her children. 

I realized 'more' does not equal gluttonous, or excessive, or greedy. It does not take away the appreciation for what is. Instead, it is growth. It is expansion. It is more of what is. It is the hope of what can be... 

So, amazingly, I made this peace with what has been a story in every chapter of my life. And it feels so fulfilling to say, "I want more." I probably always will. Because, in fact, I believe it continues to write a pretty interesting narrative. ;)
xo

Some Monday Motivation